is it a connection when there is mutual disappointment because of the lack of a connection? i am going to paint my bathroom this weekend. maybe even before the weekend. And who knows, maybe i will paint the lounge room as well. I am the only person who uses that room, i should make it my own. it kind of is. that is where I do qi qong and water my plants. my plants like it there because it’s warm and humid. the lounge room is the only enclosed area without a vent, only two large industrial windows. i am only allowed to open the windows when michael isn’t home or for short amounts of time when he is around because we don’t have screens and he doesn’t like bugs very much. it’s true, i don’t like mosquito bites at all, i am very sensitive to them, but i do like my plants to get some air. they need it. i have digressed from my initial spark. which was .. i am 87% affected by my environment. i think i need to focus on the lounge room. really just make it my own. make it my own. own it and have it be mine. my place. i’ll write things to post on the mcgruff blog up there. one problem is my airport card. i drown in my surroundings. the next thing on my list is a camera. sometimes i get sick of cooking dinner but i don’t like to eat peanut butter and jelly all the time. don’t get me wrong, i really love peanut butter. i could eat it all the time but i don’t want to.
