Earlier today I told myself that I would write something poetic on here, but I don’t know if I can. My body and mind feel like mush. I took a nap today. I don’t know for how long… could have been an hour, could have been 20 minutes, or 10. It was a lucid dream. At first it was very sexual - which I don’t get very often - but then it changed. I was dreaming of myself taking that nap. kind of like I was watching myself nap. I was able to look around the room and see into the kitchen and the front door. I was trying to wake myself up because I thought it was getting close to the time that Michael gets home, the top lock was locked and I wanted to unlock it before he got here. I was afraid that I wouldn’t hear him knock on the door if I was still sleeping. So I was forcing myself to wake up, but I couldn’t. It was one of the most horrifying sensations. I could not lift my body up off of the couch, like my muscles went completely limp and I was paralyzed. And my eyes would not stay open, they just stung and I had a terrible headache. After several attempts at waking myself and lifting my body I finally forced myself out of the dream and into this reality. Now I have a terrible headache and my joints feel sore. I need a job.
